April 4, 2011

Mindful Monday: Mindful Existence

Being 'Mindful' Can Neutralize Fears of Death and Dying

I got to practice this one over the weekend.  Normally I avoid tearjerker movies like the plague.  I don't want my fiction to be sad because real life is sad.  If it want sad all I have to do is turn on the news.  I like typical chick-flicks, romantic comedies with happy endings.  I like other types of movies, but for the most part at the end of the day when I want to turn my brain off it's not going to by crying myself to sleep.

Spoilers...stop reading if you don't want to find out about the movie Listen to Your Heart.



Saturday night I watched Listen to Your Heart through Netflix mistakenly thinking it was about a deaf girl getting out from underneath her domineering mother.  It was.  But it was also about falling in love with a guy who ends up with terminal brain cancer.  It was a beautiful story and the first half was so great.  The second half was like a giant banner waving "Life isn't fair!"  Not my cup of tea.  I couldn't sleep afterwards and spent the next couple of hours tossing and turning or crying in the living room.  My mind went from the what ifs of my own life and family, to the realization that no matter what - I am going to die someday!

I freaked out for a while, but eventually I was able to breathe until I was calm, then face the reality that yes I am going to die someday, but right now I am alive.  My kids were alive and safe.  Everyone I knew was safe to the best of my knowledge.  There was no reason to stay up all night wondering what would happen tomorrow.  With that I was able to fall asleep.  And in the morning everything seemed o.k. again.

2 comments:

  1. so interesting- I avoid the same thing- why watch a movie where people die when there's too much of that in reality? I was a lot worse after mom died, but am getting a little better. love ya cuz!

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